The return?????

I thought that maybe doing the A to Z thing would get me writing on a daily basis .... it didnt.  I didnt make it past D. D is for Damn lazy. Maybe.

Ive been thinking about why its so difficult for me to make time to write.  Its something that I enjoy doing and I even have moments in which I do it well.  So why dont I write?

The best answer I can come up with is Fear. 

Fear of what?  Well that I might be judged or misunderstood or not any good I suppose.

I think that a lot of it is that I dont want to embarass my family or other people that know me by sharing the possible craziness that goes on in my head.  I suppose that possibility occurs on a daily basis every time I open my mouth.  However, if its just verbal there is that ability to deny the embarassing craziness escaping my mind ...... but when its written down ...... and on the internet where nothing is ever deleted ..... hmmm

I think that ...... I KNOW that for the majority of my life (excluding a few glorious moments when I couldnt contain mySelf)  I have hidden, worrying about what others may think of what I may have to say.

I am ready to let that worry go. 

So yet again I will endeavor to be courageous in the attempt to write on a daily basis ...... wish me luck ...... no better yet .... give me shit when I dont write everyday ...... dont let me hide my Self.